R.I.P.

i hesitated on that given time
she had waited for my reason
i could have spelt it out clearly
but i had mumbled it up in vein
my heart had wanted to say it aloud
but my mind said that i had better not
'why not?' my heart had asked my mind
while my face perspired with burning sweats
my body temperature rose to two hundred degree
i knew i had to give a very clear indication for her to see
my mouth almost at the verge of saying that magical word
but my mind quickly came into the picture and held me back
i could hear a whisper from deep within and it had then told me
“she is simply too good for you and you know yourself too well”
and after giving a deep thought, i had whispered back saying
'you are so true and i had better not say it for her sake'
and so i had only sniggered and said nothing
i had missed out that opportunity
to have said to her that
i had truly
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all these happened
within splits of a second
and it may be for a long time
that i would be intoxicated by her
she had placed down the telephone
'no regrets' is what i had said to myself
that i had done the most courageous thing in my life
saving this beautiful and wonderful lady away from myself
that i would be content for the rest of the days that i should live
that it was not just a matter of having to conquer someone’s heart
i will 'Rest In Peace' as we can only love others in lights of giving
it is more complete when we are not asking for anything in return
i hope that in the coming days i will continue to love her as a friend